Running into His Arms ~

God has been working in my life a lot lately, and I would like to share the victories that He has helped me win with you ~

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I felt a barrier between God and myself, but I didn't know what it was or how to break it down. For a while, I had been struggling with this barrier. Mom and Dad would encourage me a lot to keep seeking God's will, and to keep praying and asking Him to show me what this barrier was. I am so thankful for my parents. They have played a big part in helping my spiritual life. As time went on, I felt this barrier growing bigger and bigger.

Then, this Friday (April 16th) I was reading Hebrews 3:12 ~ "Take heed, my brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief, in departing from the living God."

It was then that I felt God showing me that the barrier between us was my evil heart of unbelief. And He showed me that the only way to break it down is to take the step in faith and believe that He will give me eternal life. But how?? I just wished that there was something that I could physically grab on to, to ensure that I really was believing.

It was because of my heart that I couldn't get closer to Him. I wasn't believing with all my heart that He will give me eternal life, that He cares for me, and that He even exists. I talked to Mom and Dad about this. Through some things that Dad and Mom said, God opened my eyes to see that the only thing that can help me believe, is coming to God with a heart of repentance for my sin of an unbelieving heart.

We prayed but as soon as I got up, Satan brought back the thoughts of unbelief. What if God didn't really hear my prayer? What if I'm not really spiritually changed? What if God didn't forgive my heart of unbelief? These thoughts pestered my soul for the next few days. I felt like God's arms were stretched out to me and I was trying to run to Him, but something kept holding me back.

I kept reading God's word and praying, probably harder than I ever have. I journaled my thoughts and just kept seeking God. Then He gave me another verse ~

"And being made perfect, He became the author of eternal salvation unto all them that obey Him." - Hebrews 5:9

He is offering me eternal salvation, and if I just obey Him, it'll be mine! I can obey Him by answering His call to come before His throne and ask forgiveness of the disbelief in my heart. At this point, I was determined to not let Satan's tempting thoughts of disbelief take over my mind again. I went downstairs and poured out my heart to Dad and Mom and God again. I prayed again to God, thanking Him for calling me, and forgiving my evil heart of unbelief.

This time, He helped me have faith!! And I was able to cover myself in God's love, so much that Satan could not take over my mind. It was such an amazing feeling!! Knowing that I had made Satan mad by growing closer to God, and that I refused to let Satan in. It was an amazing feeling, knowing that I had made God glad by shutting Satan's tempting evil thoughts out, and running into God's arms!!!
Satan's temptations are definitely still there, but now I feel more equipped to fight Satan off, because my Lord is with me, closer than ever. My God is amazing. He is mighty to save. He has offered me eternal salvation. He is indescribable.


I consider myself blessed beyond words that God has given me amazing parents, family, and friends. Each of which will help me grow closer to God, by encouraging me and just by being Godly examples. Most of all, I am thankful for my heavenly father, who has called me, and accepted me. And let me run into His outstretched arms, which I am so unworthy of doing.

So, that's what God's been up to!! I am so glad that He cares for me.

He has helped me win the gift of eternal salvation, which He is the author of.

Please pray for me, as I have made a commitment to the Lord to surrender my life wholly to Him and to pick up my cross daily and follow Him ~ In our church, this is called repentance.

Only because of Him,

s. olivia